the answer for me

i like to consider myself as a metaphisicien becose a phisicien investegates the sience to try to understand what makes up reality while a metaphisicien investigates the essense of al that is to get a idea of what makes up reality so a phisicien studies the subatomic world to shape its awareness while a metaphisicien studies the essence of the atomic world to increese its awareness the essence of the attomic world is the consiousness so a metaphisicien investigates the consiousness to become aware of what makes up reality and realizes that reality gets shaped by the believe of the people that live in it and reality isnt actualy a global but individual thing that is different for every soul inside of the reality the believe is the essence of all existense and shapes the reality of a person therefor sience does not contain more truth then religion as a matter of fact sience is another form of religion becose it is based on theorys that arent proven facts so sience is just another religion and contains even as much truth as it contains ilusion about the truth in reality the study of the essense of reality can give a more clear answer and that is the study of the consiousness becose the consiousness of someone shapes someones reality  to investigate the consiousness on a deeper level we first need to get a better understanding of what the cconsiousness realy is and where it can be found in all life i believe that actualy every living organism contains at least a bit of consiousness becose it at liest has a minimun level of awareness becose it expiriences reality but the consiousness that took a more advanced shape started to develop in the evolution at the moment of the forming of reptiliens therefor i believe the consiousness is to be found in the brainstem  where  the nervesystem of al beyings also can be found this primitive brain evolved into the high advanced brains of the humans and the early humans increesed the consiousness by gaving it a entire new form to increese the natural shape of awareness wich it already was this was the awareness of self being it became aware that al bodyparts were actualy part of himself and started to become aware of itself as individual beying also language or speech was formed within this consiousness to shape a more advanced form of communication now i believe that all lifeforms are capeble of comunicating with eachother only not so advanced as the humans do becose the communication of humans are demanding much more deeper details than the simple communication of other beyings but to get back on early humans they became aware of their self as individual beying  this was the next fase of the consiousness wich shaped the awareness of the consious mind later in evolution the humans started to develop a awareness of the connection they had and shared with al life this was the awarenes of higher self or the awareness of the subconsious mind that exists in all life and is part of all light both as individual mind in every beying and as universal mind of all light  this was the next fase of the evolution of the consiousness or the awareness of the collective or subconsious mind the answer about what exactly is reality and what forms reality actualy is the consiousness of a individual beying becose his believes about his truth are manifesting the results that let him expiriense his personal believes about what reality realy is therefor reality isnt realy a global picture but a individual picture that is different for every soul and does not contain a global truth only til the level that it is formed by the believes a individual soul has about his reality  becose he wil expirience his believes about reality and thus creates his own reality with his own believes when the believes of that individual soul goes beyond the level of his own lower self and thus sees itself as ilusion by beying aware of its treu self as the cosmos he wil expirience his believes and thus becomes one with his treu self as living entety of the cosmoss itself and get enlighted by the awareness of his treu self and the expirience as consiousness for the cosmos that expiriences his self as living entety that is in my believe the answer that sience can never reach about what reality is and what forms up reality  therefor i believe the metaphisicle studie can only give the treu answers that sience can never give becose those answers lay in the essence of the matter and not in the subatomic particles that form all matter  and again the essense of all matter is consiousness even from the lowest levels of nonconsiousness or subconsiousness  wich is simular to all space or spirit 

my answer

to most people the problem of enlightment 

lays in the question who am i but for me

There is not any problem in salving the question who i am but its not realy to distanciate yourself from the mindbecose even the mind is part of I there is only one thing that actualy isnt part of I and thats the ignorence that tries to keep me. ignoring the truth for the rest al my gifts and weaknesses are part of the treu self that i am i wouldnt be the same self if i would denie any of them as part of my self therefor the past does actualy has a special valeu and i cant realy say its ilusion becose everything in the past happend for a reason and the sufference was ment to happen to form the self who i am in the present to eventualy be able to create my pad in the future so the suffering gave me the lessons to become who i am in the present and also gives me the abilety to totaly thrive in my future and each momentum in the now from this moment so i accept my powers and my weaknesses and the truth that in the end they are both one and the same it is the hart that is the answer to the next question wich ofcourse is what are your weaknesses and powers

It is the spiritual guide that actualy teached me that lesson and i consider it as one of the highest truths 

he once sayed 

"The weakness and powers of a person are actualy one and the same it is the way he embodys it that makes it what they are for him and the best samuray fighter can have the sharpest magical sword but that sword can also be the bait of the best fisherman and the biggest fool with the crazyest thoughts can contain the highest wisdom in a higher reality"that realy became a vision that was a huge part of my treu selve becose it was my hart that always made me vanoureble for everything including the truth of our reality in the world wich brought me a lot of suffering becose of the empathy but eventualy that hart became also the treu answer in every choise that i made to evolve into a better person

therefor even when i know the level of sufference is totaly not accepteble in the reality we live in in the present i stil believe that a minimum level of sufferense wil always be part of reality becose the one needss the other and one cant expierience treu happyness if he doesnt know sorrow to become totaly free of sufference one has to give up the posebilety to expirience joy and totaly be zen and that may free a soul from suffering but in my opinion also takes away the meaning of his life becose i believe we are ment to expirience joy of everything thats created by our higher self wich is the subconsious mind in wich we form the consiousness so to expirience total joyof al his creations is what gives meaning to our lives and therefor i am not at the same level of the buddahs teachings becose i dont believe we should give up the desire but i am at at the same level in the buddahs vision that its useles to please the desires becose that only leads to sufference in my believes the answers can be found in the fullfilment of the right desires and that is always to be found in al natural things in the form of apreciation there his no higher level of joy than to apreciate all small things in life and this never leads to any suffering but it is treu that suffering teaches tto the awareness of a mind wich things have real valeu and wich things are only leading to sufference becose sorrow makes a mind aware and therefor sorrow is needed to reach treu happyness when you can totaly enjoy the rest and piece from silence its becose the tears tought you that lesson and therefor the tears are just as important in love as the expirience of joy you cant have one without the other and its no coinsedence that people cry from both sorrow and joy thats simply becose tears are a expression of love therefor for one to become enlighted he needs to be aware what couses the sufference and also understand the deeper meaning why he needed to suffer so he is able to apreciate the pain [ofcourse always when you look back never in looking forward] but i realy am being onest when i speak now that i apreciate al the pain ive been trough in my past becose i wouldnt be who i am if i would have avoid  al the pain i would have deffenitly turned againt myself and lost contact with it i believe the answer i was searching for to become enlighted was the fulfilment of the right desires and this can only be reached in the form of apreachiation to be thankfull for all things in life is the fullfilment of the right desires and the fulfilling of your lifeperpose that were my personal answers that i found in my path that freed my mind from ignorence